Twitter Explosion!

Alright, I started a Twitter account a year ago just for me and my sister is on it and one of my best friends is on it. The rest are random people I've started "following" and it's been pretty cool. I also 'follow' celebs and random quotables and sports and funny things. It's 'private' so i need requests to be 'followed'.

Now, since my pending divorce I've added another Twitter account that is 'public'. I basically will tweet the same stuff on one and RT to my other. But not always. I say stuff on one that I don't on the other. I don't have over lapping 'followers' so its not too big a deal. I started my other account maybe a few months ago and had about 30 something followers until a week and a half ago. I like to cruise the trending topics to see what people are saying, or the 'nearby' and see what people around me are talking about. I like to chat and make comments. I can be sarcastic and witty, or I can be sympathetic and deep. It really is what ever random thing that pops into my head.

I have reached over 125 'followers' and have tweeted almost 2,000 tweets. Now I do intend to follow everyone following me and send a DM(direct message) to them to thank them for following me. I do send out a mass tweet to thank everyone at once which I guess would be sufficient but I like to add a personal touch to things.

Side note: every time I say or think 'followers', I think of an occult or something of that nature. These people are interested in what i may have to say and may like something I've commented on or posted from another source. Very neat!!

Anyways, even though this is all cyber-space 'relationships' and yes people represent themselves as they want others to see them, I am quite enjoying my time and 'meeting' new people from all over the place. From Hawaii to South Africa and to Europe. It's an amazing thing Twitter and how it can bring people from all walks of life together for some fun random conversations.

Well, my friends, that's it for now. I must stop fighting sleep and go snuggle with my pillows. I can only be the Best me for me, before I can be the Best me for you...

Single Mommy

So.... Yeah, I've been neglecting this for a while and I really have been busy. Who knew that even with being a single mom and now having to share my precious babies with their father I was still going to be busy. I honestly thought I'd spend my days as a hermit, cry my poor eyes out over missing my babies and not want to start living life as a single mom of three. What is the life of a single mom of three? Is there some kind of handbook for this? Well, if there is no one told me about it. Shame on them!! Just kidding! It's a bit scary trying to navigate this new path. I mean I didn't get married with the intention of getting divorced and I sure didn't think I'd be dealing with 3 kids, no job and learning about the adult version of me at this age. But discovering myself now is better late than never don't you think?

So, the first time my babies went to their dad's was a true test of my strength. I actually cried a lot the week leading up to them spending the night with their dad. It was the little things throughout the day that I realize I'd miss. My son, my Baby and his hugs that are just to sweet for words. He's so pig-headed but it's so fun sparring with him and watching him try to keep up and figure out how to get around me. My mini-me, she my Heart really. Just so beyond what I could ever imagine. She tests me like no one could, but she's just so sweet... As for my oldest Girl, she's so much like her father that we butt heads and maybe it's because she's a teenager, who knows. She so independent already that i miss the days when she was little and wanted me around.

Well, the first night I cried and I actually walked around the house and made their beds (I never do that) and cried my eyes out on My mini-me's bed. And ate junk food and didn't leave the house much. Luckily it was just for a few days and not the entire 4 days. I was just so happy to know they'd be home early that it didn't sink in entirely. It did this time though. I was sad the first day and night bc it's hard getting used to the silence and trying to find things to fill my days. But I had a lot of errands and since it was Spring break it a nice time alone to enjoy the weather.

Wow, I'm tired and not finished with this but it'll do for now bc my eyes are heavy and i need some sleep... Until next time and when i can keep my eyes open... Learn to Love you, so You can Love the one you're with...

Hrmmmmm

So now what do you do when the person you love the most and want to be with for the rest of your life, lives far away and you only get to see them a few times a year? I'm not a relationship expert nor am I great with relationships... But I chose this topic because it struck a chord with me that seemed like it needed to be thought about and discussed... The 'distance/absence makes a heart grow fonder' garbage is true only if the two people involved feel the same for each other, can articulate their feelings that can make that statement true, foresee a future of some kind, can be true to their feeling for each other and live their lives a separate and together at the same time, or find in each other what the other needs or wants...

Oops... Bad Blogger

Been out of it for a while and have neglected my Blog.... Shame on me... But duty calls and I must go where I am needed even if it's at the beck and call of small children. And of course poor health is a good excuse, no? So what shall I speak on today? Hrmmmm...

So I have been going through some intense personal dramas lately and although I have a therapist, family and friends I can speak to, it's not the same as just saying it and not getting a response because I'm not looking for answers per se but just wanting to say it out loud and try to work through it on my own if I can. I feel badly because I haven't really talked to my best friend in months and because she's newly married, I feel like a total downer and it's not a fun place to be. So here I am torn btwn turning this into a Blog about what not to do in a relationship or how to get a divorce... But I won't... Just gonna talk about a feeling. It may just help put things in perspective...

Things that suck...

Things that suck... I thought that was a great way to just vent and say things that are annoying to me and just don't get... For instance, it sucks that when you need to sleep and be well rested, and you can't sleep and no matter how hard you try, sleep doesn't come. 

Or when you think you've done your last load of laundry and you find another pile of clothes mysteriously appear for you to wash... 

How about when you make dinner that took some time and effort and no one wants to eat because they snacked too much or they just don't feel like eating... 

Or when you think you've charged you're iPod enough and it dies on you when you are in the middle of a long run and you just don't think you can finish without the motivation the music gives you... 

Or when you start a post and have so many things to say and then when it comes time to a put it down, you draw a blank!!! oh well, maybe sleep will help...