So... I think I lost a month. Where did the time go? I could have sworn it was just February. But now it's April and I feel like the month of March happened and I wasnt warned.
Ok let see if I can remember what happened in March... Now this is only the second day of April so you'd think I'd be able to remember right? Riiiight.... This will probably be a series of back tracking posts or I may just cram it all in one. We'll see...
March is the birth month of my first daughter. She turned 14 and I could swear she was just a little baby yesterday. I mean seriously how did that happen? She's grown into a beautiful, funny, smart, and interesting young woman. Ugh! Young woman... She's my Baby Girl and always will be. But I must deal with the fact that she's growing right before my eyes. Almost taller than me, a fact she likes to rub in...
I wish I had had some of her personality when I was her age. It's an awkward stage in her life and she's going through puberty, divorce and the years of self-doubt. She seems so self assured at times and so happy but I also see the little girl confused as to her place in this crazy world and where she fits in exactly. I hurt for her and wish she would open up to me. I always tell her my door is always open and that she can come to me and talk about anything she wants but she keeps quiet. Someday soon I hope she will. She starts High School next year and it's going to be a scary time for her and hope she will see she can come to me.
So that's not the only thing that happened but all I'm gonna say for now. Feeling a bit blah now because I miss my little big girl...
A daughter may outgrow your lap, but she will never outgrow your heart. ~Author Unknown
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