Running to Something or Away from Something?

Lately I've been trying to run at least a couple miles a day and getting competitive with myself again by trying to make the time faster each time. Or longer distance

I run for me. I run to be and stay healthy. I run to feel freedom from being anyone else but just Me. But lately I feel like running is a chore. Something I have to do in order to want to eat or be happy with how I look. Don't get me wrong, I feel great after I do it, but my body tells me a different story.

Sometimes my runs feel like a therapy session where I'm just trying to stay above the water just so I don't drown in my thoughts and pressures.

'Some times I feel I've got to get away' how ironic that a song lyric fits what I feel. I'd like to get away and leave everything behind for someone else to deal with it all. But I'm a grown up and I don't have that choice...

Need to start running again so I can feel good about me again. I'll let the rest take care of itself in its own time.