Oops... Bad Blogger

Been out of it for a while and have neglected my Blog.... Shame on me... But duty calls and I must go where I am needed even if it's at the beck and call of small children. And of course poor health is a good excuse, no? So what shall I speak on today? Hrmmmm...

So I have been going through some intense personal dramas lately and although I have a therapist, family and friends I can speak to, it's not the same as just saying it and not getting a response because I'm not looking for answers per se but just wanting to say it out loud and try to work through it on my own if I can. I feel badly because I haven't really talked to my best friend in months and because she's newly married, I feel like a total downer and it's not a fun place to be. So here I am torn btwn turning this into a Blog about what not to do in a relationship or how to get a divorce... But I won't... Just gonna talk about a feeling. It may just help put things in perspective...

Things that suck...

Things that suck... I thought that was a great way to just vent and say things that are annoying to me and just don't get... For instance, it sucks that when you need to sleep and be well rested, and you can't sleep and no matter how hard you try, sleep doesn't come. 

Or when you think you've done your last load of laundry and you find another pile of clothes mysteriously appear for you to wash... 

How about when you make dinner that took some time and effort and no one wants to eat because they snacked too much or they just don't feel like eating... 

Or when you think you've charged you're iPod enough and it dies on you when you are in the middle of a long run and you just don't think you can finish without the motivation the music gives you... 

Or when you start a post and have so many things to say and then when it comes time to a put it down, you draw a blank!!! oh well, maybe sleep will help...

Running...

so today I went for an early morning run. i haven't done that in too many months to count because i just haven't had the time. i trained and ran 2 half marathons last year and since then have been kind of not able to run. i usually go to the gym and run on the treadmill which isn't my ideal choice of run venue. but this morning i went because my sister was staying the night. with kids too young to stay at home by themselves, it makes for difficult timing for runs. the first thing i noticed about this morning's run was how at peace i felt being outdoors... running is a solitary sport and not for everyone. i only fell into it by accident, but that's a blog for another time. :)

with my iPod in and the cold air on my face i ran a route in my neighborhood that i usually run for an easy 4-5 miles... just being outdoors when Nature is waking up is really neat because you can hear the birds and squirrels and there aren't many cars out. listening to my feet pounding on the pavement and my breathing along with my music is quite nice in comparison to the sound of a machine under your feet and dozens of other people talking and weights being dropped at the gym.

as my strides eat up the distance and i pass by many still sleeping houses, i can honestly say that there are times i can have a clear mind and not be thinking about a thing, and times i feel i can solve the worlds' problems during a run... it's a Spiritual experience at times and it's when i can feel closest to God... now I know that seems like a bit of a stretch for some but it is for me at least, i am at peace and all seems still in the world... i feel the calm come over me and feel the release of any tension i have within and can actually focus on me for once... it's a way to balance my world with the crazy things going on within it, and to energize me for the coming day and what's in store for me...

nearing the end of my run, i start to focus more on what's waiting for me at home... i start to wind down and actually think instead of letting my feet take me where they know where to go... today was going to be a busy day and the run was a way to get me ready to face it all. some days it's great to come back from a run and to just feel the energy around me and other days, i don't have time to enjoy my run... today i got to enjoy it and stay on that high the whole day.

life is like running, there are many curves and bumps on your path but in the end its a satisfying journey...

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Oh goodies!!! I have a new topic for discussion right now... I'm so beyond irritated and maybe it's nothing but none of my Twitter apps are working right now!!! I can't Tweet a thing and have been trying for 30 minutes jumping from one app to another trying in vein to get one to work... I even deleted an account in one of the them to see if that's the issue.... NO it's NOT!!! Why am I irritated? I'm awake!! And want to do something other then try to sleep and most of my Facebook friends are sleeping, so why not Tweet out there in Twitterville and find someone to chat with? Well I can't even reply to anyone Tweets or post my own Tweets... Not really a good reason to be irritated I guess, after I've had this moment to share my 'irritation'. But still irritated all the same... Oh well, I guess I'm off to play Words with Friends, or as I like to call it 'Scrabble with Strangers'... :) peace out all!

Another test....

Now it's gonna be interesting to see if this works also....
Hrmmmm.... What shall I talk about now? Oh, hey I went to buy Girl
Scout Cookies today!! Usually I order them like the rest of the world
who eats them every year like clockwork... But for some reason it
passed me by this year and I was forced to find out where they would
be selling them. Found out they were being sold in front of a grocery
store. Yay me!! So I bought 10 boxes!!!
Oy Vey! So the best ones are the Thin Mints and Do Si Dos... Then of
course the shortbread cookies and the Lemon Cremes... The best way to
enjoy a Thin Mint in my opinion is to freeze them... So
scrumdidliumptious! Yes, a Willy Wonka reference. Does that age me?
Oh well! If you haven't gotten your cookies, do so this weekend or
you will let it go by and say, 'dang, I should have gotten some Girl
Scout Cookies when I had the chance.' or something like that..
Heeheeheee... Ok I guess that's it for tonight. I feel I should have
some witty closing about what I just blogged about... Hrmmmmmm... I'll
think about it and see if I can't get a better handle on where I'm
going with this Blogging stuff... Nighty Night all!!

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This is a test to see if I can blog from my iPhone... Have this thing for my phone and since my computer is lame, I'd rather have options. Good thing, no? If this works then my phone will be in more use now then it ever was... Managing 2 Twitter accounts, Facebook and Formspring.me is enough as it is and I haven't even attempted Formspring.me yet. Oh boy... I'm in for it!

Firsts

ok, so this is still technically my first blog entry because, well the night isn't over yet... now I think I've become a social network junkie... Twitter, Facebook and Formsrping.me and now this Blog... and I have two separate Twitter accounts one for the public and one just for me. although, i may not get on all of them everyday, they still exist and i still check them and post stuffs. it's my way of keeping the world close and at bay at the same time.

i love how facebook brings you closer to friends you went to high school with or people you used to work with and family you rarely talk to. it brings you close enough that you don't really have to pick up a phone to talk but only if it's necessary. so we keep in touch but from a distance... i like it. you're in my life but not really. i like being around people and talking to people but who has the time?? alright it's time to put this to sleep and decide which random thing in my head will be the next topic. go on, talk amongst yourselves and let me know what you think!!

First Blog...

Today I begin a new chapter in my life... Why? Why not. I need a place to go where I can just say what I want to say and it won't matter what I say because you don't know me. It might be a venting session or confessions of the Heart or some Really Random Ramblings... Either way I'm here and here we go!!